Pumping at work is still (ha, "still"! Since yesterday!) a total slog. Not that I was expecting an overnight improvement. I do think it's getting slightly better each day, as my body gets used to producing milk when my baby is not around. Like, pumping today was better than pumping ten days ago. For sure.
However! Feeling sad and anxious 3X/daily for the sake of milk production is not super sustainable, so I'm eager to push past that. My hope is that I will simply grow out of this phase, and I think I MIGHT.
I'm giving myself 6 weeks to see an improvement, and then I'm going to pump without self imposed sadness, and produce what I produce. 6 weeks from when I started work that is, which was almost two weeks ago.
I just counted it up on my calendar and Everett will be 18 weeks old on Sunday. I'm already counting down to when I can be done with this pumping business.
34 more weeks!
When Gabriel was a baby, the recommendation was to introduce solids at 4 months; now it's a recommendation of 6 months. An interesting thing about having kids almost 10 years apart is that you can really SEE how parenting experts have changed their tunes. And yet, whatever the recommendation is RIGHT NOW, that's the one that is DEFINITELY RIGHT AND WE WILL NEVER CHANGE OUR MINDS.
There are some things like car seat safety and such where obviously we just have better technology and better laws now, but there are other things, like cosleeping for instance, where it's such a moving target, I think it's silly how FIRM 'they' are in their current position, even though that position will likely change if you give it a year or five.
But anyway, now the recommendation is six months (at the youngest) and there's quite a body of research backing up that age.
I have been sorely tempted to start Everett on solids at five months, to take some of the pressure off of this whole pumping situation, but realistically I'm too intimidated by all that research to really go against it.
WHAT IF I GIVE MY BABY A BITE OF BANANA AND THEN HE GETS DIABEETUS??
Well that probably won't happen but there's this research that says it MIGHT and I just cannot be the one who dances with the devil on that stuff.
Everett already shows signs of developmental readiness (pincer grasp, can sit on his own, good hand-eye coordination, interest in food), so I am pretty confident that he'll be ready at six months.
Can I maintain my PUMPING SADNESS for the extra five weeks past my self imposed deadline to get him to where we can start supplementing with solids? Well if you break it up into chunks like that, I think I can.
Six weeks to see if it gets better (and we are already through two of them), and then five more weeks after that if it HASN'T.
This I can manage.
And now I'm going to jot down the stuff that Everett does at four months, which is really just a record for myself, because the poor neglected second child does not have a baby book:
- Sits on his own (for a few minutes at a time before he wobbles over)
- Rolls easily from front to back
- Rolls from back to front only if he's naked
- Sucks his thumb
- Reaches for (and successfully grasps) toys
- Coos, yells and giggles (has /k/ and /g/ consonants)
- Pats me while he's nursing
- Plays with his feet