07 May 2008

Recurring Nightmares

I can't think of anything worse than listening to someone tell me about their dreams. Actually, sometimes it's worse to look at someone else's photo albums and pretend to be interested. I know this. But I'm looking to you for interpretation, so bear with me.

These are my three recurring dreams (nightmares?):

Original Dream: I am at a pool (it's always the same pool, and I feel like I would recognize it if I went there as an adult, but I'm not sure which one it is now) with my mom, my sister, and my brother Duncan. My mom tells me that the pool is very deep, and if I get in I'll drown, because I can't swim. But I have to push a ladder from one side of the pool to the other, or else I'll die (I'm not told this by anyone, I just know it to be true). So I get in the pool, and am walking across the bottom with a ladder, when I realize that I'm dying anyways, and I freak out and wake up.
I've been having this dream since I was 2 or 3 years old.
Variations: Sometimes just my mom is there. When my siblings are there, it is always as their 1 and 5-year-old selves, even though I am always my current age.

Original Dream: I am at the pool at the YMCA with a girl from my kindergarten class. The water is frothing and bubbling. Someone tells us not to run, but we are running around the pool at top speed. At the shallow end, we slip in, and are sitting Indian Style at the bottom of the pool. Various other members of my kindergarden class are there, as is my brother Duncan. I have to breathe, so I try to rise to the surface. A boy from my class sits me back down and tells me that if "they" see me come up, they'll kill me. I ask him what I'm supposed to do, and he says we're all waiting to die. I wake up in a panic.
I've been having this dream since the beginning of kindergarten.
Variations: My companions in this dream are no longer my Bradley School classmates, but throughout the years have changed to be reflective of whomever my current social set is. This was the dream I had last night, and I was running around the pool with Julia. The person who tells me that we're waiting to die is always some current boy that I'm thinking about.

Original Dream: I'm taking a bath at my parents' house. I try to turn off the water, but I can't. The whole bathroom starts to fill up, and I'm treading water. I can't get out. Eventually, it is full to the ceiling, and as I lose the last few inches of space and get sucked under, I wake up.
I've been having this dream since I was 9 or 10.
Variations: Now that I have Gabriel, sometimes I'm trying to save him as well. Sometimes I know there are people on the outside of the bathroom refusing to help me.

So. What does it mean? And has anyone else been having the same dreams for years?

5 comments:

  1. what happened to you with water?

    traditionally it's associated with emotions. obviously almost drowning and being told you will die is emotional, but I'm sure it's more specific than that.

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  2. I have a dream that I've been having since I was about 4 or 5, involving swimming at Seacliff, and the tide crashing into the cliffs- while I get swept out to sea. the whole dream involves me trying to time my swimming with the waves so I can get back to shore- but every time I get closer, it pulls me even farther out. Eventually I realize that the "shore" is gone and I resign myself to dying.

    Weird about us and drowning, eh?

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  3. I always had two dreams as a kid, one I forget other than, yes, I drowned in it, and the second one I had was that I got hit by a train and died. And in both of these dreams, especially the train one, I got the distinct impression that this really happened to me in a past life. I don't believe in that anymore, and I don't have the dreams anymore, maybe that's related? Anyway, it seems like drowning must be a common bad dream to have. A deep seated fear that everyone has, maybe?

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  4. Lol you seriously have some issues with water. I dont have any recurrent dreams but I still remember one nightmare I had when I was really little. No dream has ever freaked me out as much as that one. Now that I look back I cant understand why I was so scared.

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  5. I don't have reocurring dreams, especially not ones about water, but I seriously think I was a fish in a past life!

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