I'm back at work today, and although I never thought I could have these thoughts escaping from my brain, it IS sort of a relief to get back into my routine. Thursday I almost died, but I didn't, and I didn't even hurt anyone besides myself, so there's a lot to be thankful for. I don't much want to talk about it (and I realize that I AM TALKING ABOUT IT RIGHT NOW but honestly, that's just to tell you that I don't want to talk about it) because thinking about how stupid I am makes me angry, and I'd rather just be stupid. As opposed to stupid AND ANGRY.
The receptionist at my doctor's office has revealed her true colors as a righteous B-I-T-C-H, but despite her willful refusal to be helpful in any way, shape or form, I do finally as of today have an appointment with a podiatrist, who I suppose will tell me that I have to wait around and hope that my tiny foot bone heals, which I suppose I already know. But hearing it from a doctor will be more reassuring than hearing it from the depths of my soul, because the depths of my soul are not very reassuring. They're actually quite anxiety-producing.
I'm mostly moved into my new apartment, which is actually quite cute and, considering that it's only a one-bedroom, quite spacious as well. As a sort of silver lining to this week of utter disasters, my immobilization meant that my brothers and dad moved all my stuff, and I didn't have to do anything at all. I do believe I mentioned that I hate moving?
My rental car is a brand new 2008 Toyota Yaris (I didn't know that was a car until I picked it up yesterday). Aside from bizarre dashboard placement, it's very nice, but there's something bittersweet about a shmancy car right now. I sort of never want to drive again, and I sort of am not interested in delving into another expensive auto experience, so methinks that if I do have to buy another car in order to ferry Gabe about, it'll be some sort of early 90's clunker. Which makes driving a car that's essentially new off of the lot pretty tortuous in a lot of ways. It's so shiny. And clean.