20 May 2008

Back at work and as usual giving myself a headache

I'm back at work today, and although I never thought I could have these thoughts escaping from my brain, it IS sort of a relief to get back into my routine.  Thursday I almost died, but I didn't, and I didn't even hurt anyone besides myself, so there's a lot to be thankful for.  I don't much want to talk about it (and I realize that I AM TALKING ABOUT IT RIGHT NOW but honestly, that's just to tell you that I don't want to talk about it) because thinking about how stupid I am makes me angry, and I'd rather just be stupid.  As opposed to stupid AND ANGRY.


The receptionist at my doctor's office has revealed her true colors as a righteous B-I-T-C-H, but despite her willful refusal to be helpful in any way, shape or form, I do finally as of today have an appointment with a podiatrist, who I suppose will tell me that I have to wait around and hope that my tiny foot bone heals, which I suppose I already know.  But hearing it from a doctor will be more reassuring than hearing it from the depths of my soul, because the depths of my soul are not very reassuring.  They're actually quite anxiety-producing.

I'm mostly moved into my  new apartment, which is actually quite cute and, considering that it's only a one-bedroom, quite spacious as well.  As a sort of silver lining to this week of utter disasters, my immobilization meant that my brothers and dad moved all my stuff, and I didn't have to do anything at all.  I do believe I mentioned that I hate moving?

My rental car is a brand new 2008 Toyota Yaris (I didn't know that was a car until I picked it up yesterday).  Aside from bizarre dashboard placement, it's very nice, but there's something bittersweet about a shmancy car right now.  I sort of never want to drive again, and I sort of am not interested in delving into another expensive auto experience, so methinks that if I do have to buy another car in order to ferry Gabe about, it'll be some sort of early 90's clunker.  Which makes driving a car that's essentially new off of the lot pretty tortuous in a lot of ways.  It's so shiny.  And clean.


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  1. Why the heck would the put the dashboard over there? That is so wierd.

  2. I just hate when I do something stupid. It just makes me feel, well, STUPID, but ashamed. Not that I am beyond stupidity, but I just hate it!